An angel on his two knees, arms stretched towards the red sea; of violence and a sultry tongue.

-Wednesday, August 31, 2005-

[Happy Teachers' Day]

yeah today is the teachers' day celebrations.

performed for the teachers.. played "Dirty Little Secret" and "Shut Up". everything went quite smoothly cept for the crash cymbal that kept falling lower and lower when playing DLS. haha this time was like only 10% nervous. maybe cause like after performing during the carnival then now quite used to it? the crowd didn't seem to lively though. well i thought it was a great experience. yeah and also quite pleased cause some people told us our ShutUp was quite nice.

then after the celebrations went to cuppage played 2games then went to far east. omg. far east isn't really the best place to shop for guys. like 3/4 of the shops were for girls and there was limited choices for guy's clothing. then later went home. watched a dvd of some zombie movie with my bro... it was damn lame and retarded and quite gross. like wasted 1hour30mins watching that dumb show.

still feeling tired from the blood donation thing. like after sitting for 15mins then stand up will feel giddy.

[Love, J] ;6:47 PM;

-Tuesday, August 30, 2005-

[Ouch]

hello !

today was a meaningful day.
first meaningful thing i did ; donate blood. was not really painful but when they inject the anesthetic there was some pain. but after donating they bandanged the wound so tight then was quite uncomfortable.

teachers' day rehersal today... first rehersal was stupid and screwed despite us not making any mistakes. mel and joey was hardly audible cause the volume of their mics were like so low??

then 2nd rehersal. YAY! so much better than the first but halfway playing through shutup my sticks flew off then i had to pause to pick them up. was super embarrassing cause everyone was like staring at me. my wound was damn disgusting cause after the rehersal took out the bandange then i could see blood oozing out. eww.

then went to j8 and bought an OP shirt for tomorrow. $39.90 but it looks really nice and fits me perfectly. woot. gonna go practise for tomorrow.

later.

[Love, J] ;7:57 PM;

-Monday, August 29, 2005-

[Snow White]

i'm elated, jubilant, estatic, stoked!

today is a great day , minus the literature class test result.
finally got to see her today.. after like 2weeks
and dad was being such a nice guy, he went to the jam studio at orchard after work just to buy the japanese oak drumsticks for me and now he's looking for the fingerbands i wanted. thanks dad! woot <3

went home straight after sch cause they didn't want to jam then drummed for 1.5hours cause my SS book is lost and i can't study!
so excited and scared of tomorrow. and wednesday.

yeah tomorrow is the blood drive.
will be donating blood. hopefully i won't get so nervous that i clench my muscles and make the needle break ( according to ms tan the needle might break if you are too tensed ) and tomorrow is the audition/rehersal for the teachers' day performance. i'm confident we will get in... after so much work. and finally the school is letting us wear something nice on wednesday.

k byes gotta go do something else ( not that i have much to do really )

[Love, J] ;6:51 PM;

-Saturday, August 27, 2005-

[Take A Seat Right Next To Me]

hi

we are going to perform on teachers' day. im scared and excited... stagefright .
ok i'm going to make today a productive day. going to tidy my room, then go for tution, then go jamming, then study. hopefully there will be no distractions.

and yes i need to buy new clothes. ZY we NEED to FIND time to GO to far east!

ok bye.

[Love, J] ;8:42 AM;

-Tuesday, August 23, 2005-

[Better Off Dead]

im a fuck up. useless. good at nothing. a maths, maths, literature, i suck at them all. the only things i think i am good at are playing games and drums. but the actual fact is that there are so many people that can do those better than me. suddenly i feel so small and insignificant. there are two things i can do now, buck up or give up. i think i am a little of both. i want to do those maths papers but i have a short attention span really. remember in primary school i was so interested in maths and sciences cause i had such GREAT AND CARING TEACHERS! but now i get teachers that are fucking biased, and maybe they care but they are still fucking biased. feeling sad now.

ands thanks to Coldplay - The Scientist for the mood i am in right now, that song has never failed in it's mission to make me feel sad and i can relate to parts of the lyrics.

drums i know i am definitetly interested in, practicing hours everyday... i will realise my dream one day. but academically wise, i have no clue where to begin with? hopefully mr chua's a maths tution + some hard work will help me overcome this crisis. HOPE-fully this will be a turning point for me.

yeah and i shan't be shallow and superficial anymore. there's more to this life.

[Love, J] ;9:12 PM;

-Monday, August 22, 2005-

[Sunsets Are Nice But They Don't Keep You Warm At Night]

didn't go sch today cause i was sick

good thing is i found out that she didn't go too! lucky me cause all i ever go to school is to talk to friends and to steal quick glances at her (:

been studying a little and practicing drums like mad. i must say i am very satisfied with myself today. learnt some grooves from experimenting. also the 2 songs shutup and dls is almost completed. yay.

feeling sleepy after browsing through the drum forum for 2hours... and maybe cause of the medicines.

AND THE OCEANS KEEP WAVING GOODBYE, I SURE MISS YOU TONIGHT. I MISS YOU A LITTLE MORE EVERYDAY. ):

[Love, J] ;9:34 PM;

-Saturday, August 20, 2005-

[Still Waiting]

hmm had english o level orals on thursday. somehow it was easier than i expected... wahaha managed to crap alot.

friday : watched gym performance during assembly. not bad sia the B boys look damn pro

i hate to be sick! got flu and sorethroat plus people keep burning paper , making the air so hazy. yy says "pray to your water then drink it and you will be cured" , hopefully it works ^^

having tution later, then go jam then go SpringBloom? i think i will be damn what when i play at SB later loh. dumb flu ARGH. prelims are drawing near and the only subject i started revising is chem. A maths drives me crazy...

LATERS

[Love, J] ;10:19 AM;

-Sunday, August 14, 2005-

[Dreaming A Reality]

still waiting for a good day
been holding it back long enough
it's about the presence felt when you're around me

hmm went for drum lessons at noon. not bad, the lesson today was interesting. the new instructor is quite friendly. funny how he keeps changing my grade... the guy in charge asked the instructor to assess me to see which grade i am in cause he says he's enrolling me for an examination at the end of the year. then during our first lesson he said grade 1 , changed to grade 2 on our 2nd lesson and this time he said i could probably pass grade 3. =D

then later went to khatib macs to meet up with ck joey and hy. tried to study there but some kids were having a birthday party and it was damn noisy so we decided to go ck's house. not bad sia hy taught us most of the organic chemistry stuff and i learnt to play adam's song guitar intro ^^ haha i also made a decision that is to concerntrate on studies and the band. cause i think she don't even care about whether i exist or not... basically my fault that i didn't make the effort to talk to her. mixed feelings =/ haha elated too cause many people say i've slimmed down. ^^

[Love, J] ;8:46 PM;

-Saturday, August 13, 2005-

[I Would Wish Upon A Star, But That Star It Doesn't Shine]

Blink 182 - Story Of A Lonely Guy

Push it out, fake a smile
Avert disaster, just in time
I need a drink, cause in a while
Worthless answers from friends of mine
It's dumb to ask, cool to ignore
Girls posess me, but they're never mine
I made my entrance, avoided hazards
Checked my engine, I fell behind
I fell behind

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy
Remember when I was in the grocery store, now's my time
Lost the words,lost my nerve, lost the girl, left the line
I would wish upon a star, but that star, it doesn't shine
So read my book with a boring ending
A short story of a lonely guy
Who fell behind

She makes me feel like it's raining outside
And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm a fuckin' boy

She makes me feel like it's raining outside

And when the storm's gone i'm all torn up inside
I'm always nervous on, days like this like the prom
I get too scared to move, cause i'm still just a stupid worthless boy

[Love, J] ;9:38 AM;

[Looking For Some Answers]

hello. I think i have PMS(Pre-Masturbation-Syndrome) for guys. been feeling moody these few days.

anyway Thursdays are just so my favourite day of the week:
school , rendang , jam , watching lost

Friday :
damn i got a B4 for chinese O's. kinda expected but was hoping i could get at least a B3 ): stayed in sch til 5 then went to khatib play bball with ck , joey , amb , eugene , zy , ys.

[Love, J] ;9:23 AM;

-Wednesday, August 10, 2005-

[Time Flies, And So Do Birds]

hello.

i'm bored and tired.

ytd went to marina sq with 4H and zy, ambrose. there were no pool tables so we went to play lan then later went to watch the fireworks. they were so beautiful! i am always so fancinated by fireworks ^^ loved that firework that looked like golden drops of rain. then walked to esplanade. the place was super packed , then zhiguang being the leader brought us to clark quay macs. walked to raffles place mrt and then i realised i left my wallet in macs! then i ran back to macs and i found it lying on the floor where i had i seated^^ wahaha felt so relieved. some of them need to go home liao then the rest wanted to go watch midnight movie. i didn't know whether i want to go home or watch with them cause i was thinking they sure wana watch " the maid " and i didn't want to cause i don't dare to watch horror films. in the end went to Plaza Sing then crystal said her mom never recieve her msg and had come to fetch her liao. crystal managed to convince her mom to watch a movie with us but then all the tickets were sold out. felt a little relieved cause then i don't have to watch " the maid " heehee. then crytal's mom send me and jiawei home. after i reached home play 3rounds of dota with weizhe then realised it was already 2:40am then quickly go sleep loh.

haha the fireworks are really beautiful... last yr also got go watch with my dad. SO NICE (:

now the hy and joey don't know doing what, say want jam then never reply liao.

time to go practice the 2 songs! bye!

[Love, J] ;11:28 AM;

-Monday, August 08, 2005-

[Happy Birthday Singapore]

ok today went to school for national day's celebration. it was damn boring but the good think was we were released at 9:30. out of so many interesting programs and activites i chose to go play lan. playing lan is so meaningless and boring. waste of time and money, plus the frigging mouse was spoilt. then later go play pool then go home. lalala marina sq has changed so much.

feeling fked up over small things that has got nothing to do with me. maybe i'm just tired.

can't wait til tomorrow...

[Love, J] ;9:01 PM;

-Friday, August 05, 2005-

[Willy Wonka Is Sick]

wahahaha. fun stuff

1.MR LAU FORGOT TO ZIP HIS PANTS DURING GEOG LESSON ! and even after he realised he couldn't zip it so he used his laptop case to cover his ahem ahem.

2.The japanese students' fishing dance. haha the dance was so cute and funny.

3.Social Etiquette course. hehe ok maybe i look a little funny in men's clothing. i thought coach luke was damn charming cause he looks so good and has a good sense of humour.and ambrose's "i am humorous" pose. took photos after the course. then went to watch charlie and the chocolate factory. me and joey was like enjoying the show so much cause it was so retardedly funny but many people said that the show sucked. lol wanted to go play pool / go esplanade but zy & ys wanted to go home so me and ck went home with them. and yay for sat,sun,mon,tues,wed. long holiday! though there's half day on mon.

[Love, J] ;10:45 PM;